Narri N. (they/them)

I have a trauma-based personality disorder, which sometimes manifests itself in episodes of often uncontrollable bouts of verbal violence. I prefer to direct this to people on the internet (as opposed to actual people), as I don’t wish to be violent towards people I actually care about.

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Cake day: December 9th, 2024

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  • I can assure you you aren’t alone in this.

    It seems in fact that your girlfriend is right there with you, but like it was already said here I feel you need to communicate it to her in a way that she actually understands that you are trying to limit your news intake because of your mental well-being. Maybe advice her for you and her to try to do it together or something? Like that neither of you would read as much (political/economical) news so that she wouldn’t even feel the need to try to alleviate her panic by sharing it with you, as I’m assuming that’s the reason she’s sharing her panic with you. Then maybe try to spread this “ideology” of sorts to your immediate surroundings, if all you hear there as well is just the doom and gloom of late-stage capitalism. Rather talk about good things, like the inherent beauty of ever-present life if all else fails.

    Things that have helped me in the past with my personal mental health problems was to not push myself too hard to achieve beyond my current capabilities. If you feel worn down by everyday life too much maybe you can reduce the amount of physical activity at the moment? Don’t get me wrong running AND exercising 3 to 5 times a week is amazing, especially for a retired person and something I have never been able to achieve, but I still think it’s worth making adjustments as needed. But that’s up to you to decide if you feel that’s something you want to keep up.

    Another thing could be community work. Current situation in the world seems hopeless on a grander scheme, but I have personally found much joy in volunteer community work, in my immediate community. I don’t know where you are or what is available to you, but I suggest looking into something like that.

    And of course, as you know already, stop doomscrolling. I removed my social media accounts some time ago, but still find myself occasionally mindlessly scrolling the feeds on youtube and lemmy. Which is still just doomscrolling. The short-form video is one of the worst – if not straight-up the worst – drug I have ever tried (and I’ve tried several) for ease of relapse. Maybe look into private DNS providers and internet content blockers if you haven’t already to help you with avoiding the shit that’s out there.

    I’m guessing there will be many people in the comments who share your predicament and will have other ways of alleviating, here are some of mine. Good luck!










  • Yes, capitalism can only serve the capitalists, and maintain a (highly relative) peaceful environment (not counting the subjugated peoples and areas in the global south atm) in only the most auspicious of times. And even then the system will inevitably shit itself and die every few years or so and must be resurrected by national intervention using said nation’s taxpayers’ (=working class) money. So the system is fundamentally flawed, which has never and will never “work” insofar as the working class is regarded.

    Indeed the US is in quite dire straits, having replaced its national industrial capacity for outsourcing to countries with cheap labor, and also positioning the US dollar as the world currency, thus having the leverage to force dissenting nations to either go bankrupt or accept its imperialism. Now there is no industrial capacity in the US and its populace (completely understandably) not wanting to do two or three full-time jobs just to afford housing and groceries, neverminding everything else you need to live in there (like health insurance, so you best hope you don’t get sick ever), just to bring the industrial capacity back at minimum wage. And now the administration is driving out the only ones willing to do the manual labor at minimum wage, the immigrants; while being willfully ignorant to the fact that the entire nation’s history is that of immigrants, as most of the natives died on the Trail of Tears or were otherwise killed off and cordoned to reservations.

    It seems that there are only bad tidings afoot for the USian worker, having also been brainwashed since birth into the impossibility of communism. Doom and gloom.






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    A liberal friend of mine asked me a question just a week or so ago: “do you really believe China to be more free than France?”, and like dawg have you been to China and know how its citizens live or is everything you think you know about it just western propaganda? I haven’t so I can’t tell you, but I also don’t think any European country is the paragon of freedom you think it is.




  • No problem at all, I actually like the feeling I get from sharing what has helped me in the past. And especially so if I get validation that my way of communicating those points comes across clearly and resonates with those who hear it. So thank you. And indeed, while DBT is absolutely not the most perfect form of therapy for everyone ever and has many valid criticisms (especially when its implementation on Borderline Personality Disorder is combined with the fact that unreasonably many autistic people – of which an even more unreasonable percentage are women – are being misdiagnosed as BPD, and that having such a diagnosis is and will be a stigma causing further hindrance in actually getting across your own opinion of being autistic to those in their ivory towers), it has many ideas and ways of implementing those ideas (what to do when and how to deal with feeling down or negative emotions?) that should be taught to children in early childhood (preferably by a primary caregiver) globally. Or at least that is where all my problems in my personal life have arisen: I have strong emotions, but no-one ever told me what to do when they come, so I did what everyone in my country had done since at least the last war: engage in harmful behavior with alcohol and other substances.

    Ah, you were embraced by the touch of the 'tism since before birth also? Same here, same here. And yes, I hear you. If I could I would make the universe as I see fit; just and good, and so nothing would ever have to change again. But that’s not possible now, is it? So all we can do is accept this state of existence, and embrace the world and all living things in it (except the intolerant) with all its inherent contradictions and illogicality. But I get you with the “sticky thoughts”, and I find it a valid concern when speaking of like work and income stuff on a broader sociological scope. There’s a fine line, though, between having a valid concern for the future of yourself and your family and other close people, and needlessly ruminating on things beyond your comprehension.


  • “Mom would be sad” was basically the only thought that carried me through my most suicidal years. So I guess it’d be “kid would be sad” for you. In any case fake it 'til you make it if all else fails, that was what they taught us in dialectical behavior therapy by the way of willingness & half-smile (or at least that is how I internalized it). Another thought that has been keeping me going since those suicidal years is “this too shall pass” with or without the additional “away” in the end, by which I have come to understand the transient nature of everything; the only constant is change, and it is inevitable. This combined with some personal growth in understanding of global geopolitical and economical concepts (straight up communism bro) has lead me to believe that better times are indeed coming, and although it may not be us alive right now who will be here to see those better days, we should not lose hope for the future. Someone once said that “wise men plant trees under whose shade they will never rest” or something, so I’d maybe encourage you to pick up again your hobbies that you listed: art, walks, talking, plant growing and community work and try to focus on what’s at hand, not what has been or could be or is somewhere else. You cannot affect any of those, so why worry about them?

    I understand that the current global political and economical unrest is scary, but if it’s not currently threatening your life (or say your kid’s life) or stopping you from enjoying the things you are doing currently then it’s not really worth worrying about those, is it? I myself found help through DBT, it’s a long-form therapy used among others for emotional dysregulation disorders – like borderline personality disorder (that’s me!) – but it has many concept I believe should be in standard school curriculum globally, and the resources are available online as well as in print.

    In any case, I hope the best for you. Raising children in the current global situation is no doubt incredibly anxiety inducing, and though it is good to stay strong for your children, it isn’t advisable to suffer because of your children so to say. It is good that you evidently know how to ask for help, and probably are capable to receive it.